I always have those days. were i wonder why im still here. stuck in the same place being the good person and friend that i should be. why do i do it if it gets me nowhere and nothing in return?
Im scared of the future. ill admit it. i dont want to grow up anymore. im always unsure of myself. i want to know what im doing right. or if im doing everything all wrong.
everyone is always telling me im going to do great. bullshit.
i dont believe what anyone says. and no matter what someone tells me. i dont think its the truth. im not sure what is a lie anymore.
i hate these days where i dont know why i keep doing this. keep living this lie that i show people. i hate the way people treat me..after all of done for them.
Those days where i just want to be gone..then i go to my favorite place. and i sit on the dock next to my boat, with the waves crashing on the warm sandy beach up the road. and i realize..
THIS IS WHAT I LIVE FOR